[Not that he really wants to get into the specifics of why it's different, right now, but. There was still loyalty bought and traded there, after all; how necessary it'd been is another question entirely.]
Cards on the table: I don't want you to fall in love with me. You would wind up hurt, and I don't want that. And I don't want you to take it personally or brush it off with coy little games. If those sorts of feelings were a risk, then I would want to stop this before it ever got that far, so you wouldn't get hurt.
I know that's not very charming of me. But I'm open to a great deal more, contingent on assurances that you're not going to be in a position to get hurt.
[ She doesn't believe it's different even with the rules that they're beholden to here. But they're unpacking something else at the moment and there will be plenty of time later on to pester him about it.
And speaking of unpacking things - her initial reaction is to puff up her cheek in a huff. Being told what to do has rarely sat well with her. Growing up spoiled means that she's used to things going her way. And while that annoyance certainly lingers she realizes as she reads those words that there's care behind them. ]
First of all, it's pretty bold of you to assume that I or anyone else would fall in love with you. Second of all, you can't just tell someone not to fall in love with you. That's now how it works.
And lastly - how are you certain that you're not going to get hurt? Not by me necessarily but by anyone else in here.
[ She remembers the little boy. He sticks out all too starkly in her mind even if it's something Rufus would much rather she forget. ]
Weren't you the one who was just pushing back against my assertion that people don't care about me? Now you're offended that I assumed someone might? Make up your mind.
You said not to be cryptic. I don't know how you expect me to make it plainer. I'm not going to take a course of action that runs the risk of hurting you. If that's too cryptic, then I'm at a loss.
Ugh - you're so annoying! That's not what I was getting at at all.
I'm not upset that you're looking out for me. In fact I'm really flattered that you care that much about me at all and I don't want you to get hurt either. But there's a difference between telling me that you care and sounding like an arrogant ass while doing it!
I sound like an arrogant ass in everything that I do. Because I am one. Just like you're a high-maintenance brat who always has to have things her way. (I'm that, too, for what it's worth.)
I do like you, you know. And I liked playing with you, and I'd do it again. But like you said, you're a romantic, and mere fondness isn't an acceptable substitute for what you deserve. You do deserve someone who makes you feel as special as you are.
I wouldn't say that about someone I didn't care about.
i'm so sorry for how late this is 😠feel free to drop!!
[ Though she suspects that he does. He's admitted as much. But she feels like she has to say something even if it is incredibly weak in the face of both the truth and something incredibly sweet.
She doesn't quite know how to feel about those two things. Layer a conversation about feelings and boundaries and it's safe to say she's very much outside her comfort zone. ]
If it's worth anything, I care about you too. I consider you a friend. But I also enjoyed what we did. Given the nature of this place, it wouldn't be awful to do that again with someone that I do like but you're right in that a conversation about where we stand is important because our friendship means a lot to me.
I can't guarantee that feelings won't come up but if it looks like it's veering towards romantic ones, it would be best to stop. ...What do you think?
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[Not that he really wants to get into the specifics of why it's different, right now, but. There was still loyalty bought and traded there, after all; how necessary it'd been is another question entirely.]
Cards on the table: I don't want you to fall in love with me. You would wind up hurt, and I don't want that. And I don't want you to take it personally or brush it off with coy little games. If those sorts of feelings were a risk, then I would want to stop this before it ever got that far, so you wouldn't get hurt.
I know that's not very charming of me. But I'm open to a great deal more, contingent on assurances that you're not going to be in a position to get hurt.
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And speaking of unpacking things - her initial reaction is to puff up her cheek in a huff. Being told what to do has rarely sat well with her. Growing up spoiled means that she's used to things going her way. And while that annoyance certainly lingers she realizes as she reads those words that there's care behind them. ]
First of all, it's pretty bold of you to assume that I or anyone else would fall in love with you. Second of all, you can't just tell someone not to fall in love with you. That's now how it works.
And lastly - how are you certain that you're not going to get hurt? Not by me necessarily but by anyone else in here.
[ She remembers the little boy. He sticks out all too starkly in her mind even if it's something Rufus would much rather she forget. ]
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You said not to be cryptic. I don't know how you expect me to make it plainer. I'm not going to take a course of action that runs the risk of hurting you. If that's too cryptic, then I'm at a loss.
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I'm not upset that you're looking out for me. In fact I'm really flattered that you care that much about me at all and I don't want you to get hurt either. But there's a difference between telling me that you care and sounding like an arrogant ass while doing it!
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I do like you, you know. And I liked playing with you, and I'd do it again. But like you said, you're a romantic, and mere fondness isn't an acceptable substitute for what you deserve. You do deserve someone who makes you feel as special as you are.
I wouldn't say that about someone I didn't care about.
i'm so sorry for how late this is 😠feel free to drop!!
[ Though she suspects that he does. He's admitted as much. But she feels like she has to say something even if it is incredibly weak in the face of both the truth and something incredibly sweet.
She doesn't quite know how to feel about those two things. Layer a conversation about feelings and boundaries and it's safe to say she's very much outside her comfort zone. ]
If it's worth anything, I care about you too. I consider you a friend. But I also enjoyed what we did. Given the nature of this place, it wouldn't be awful to do that again with someone that I do like but you're right in that a conversation about where we stand is important because our friendship means a lot to me.
I can't guarantee that feelings won't come up but if it looks like it's veering towards romantic ones, it would be best to stop. ...What do you think?